A New Year

Wow, it's hard to believe that 2011 is now upon us. There has been a lot of things that's happen in my life over the last year and my last blog just didn't seem relevant anymore. "The Empty Nest" was created as a way for me to release - with both of my daughters gone off to college. I felt empty, alone, and very sad much of that time of blogging. Jillian fussed at me the other day saying - Mom why don't you blog anymore? I told her that it just didn't' fit me...and she said -"Then go change it". The more I thought about it, the more I thought about the things that has touched me so much over the last few months. I have come across many notes from my mom and uncovered many things that I didn't know about her. It sadden me that I didn't know a lot of these things when she was alive. Maybe it was my own stupid fault for not asking or for being more active with her during her lifetime. I realize now that I really missed out a lot, and for that I will forever be saddened. I also learned many things about my sister-in-law that I didn't know - through readings, through notes, and through talking with others. Again, it was me who missed out. I have made many choices in my life that I regret and I have chosen paths that have lead me down selfish paths. This selfish has also made me realize that I have stepped back from others that I care about and didn't realize the depth of their love and realtionship. So when I hear about people talking about New Years Resolutions, I have to look deep into my heart and soul and reflect on what I can do to make me a better person. A better person for me, for my husband, for my daughters, for my brother and other family, and for friends and above all a person that God wants me to be. So here are my resolutions for 2011.
1. Get my finances in order and manage money more efficiently.
2. Focus on non-material things. You can't take things with us when were gone, so why focus on
them now.
3. Make a conscious effort to be more healthy. I am over weight and not happy with me.
4. Spend quality time with people I love and care about and quit pretending to be what I'm not.
5. Make a conscious effort to realize that my actions and energy affect others
6. Laugh more and cry less.
7. Journal /blog more and write a prayer journal
8. Read more - keep my brain busy.
9. Pray often.

Today was not a good day, and I've already broken most of these resolutions so I'll start fresh in the morning with a positive attitude, a positive mind, and in solitude and devotional time with God.